Sunday, August 21, 2011

Lessons learnt from "Always Enough" by Rolland & Heidi Baker

I. Overview of Book
This book is pretty much a book of testimonies mainly of their ministry in Mozambique and how God has been faithful in multiplying food, providing financially, healing the sick, lame, blind, deaf, and even raising the dead. It is amazing to read about how desperately intimate they are to God and how they are always following the guidance of the Holy Spirit every step of the way. The book also covers earlier recollections of their lives, how they met together and has been faithfully serving God's calling through the different countries, cultures and languages. 

II. 2 points learnt from the book. 
A. Always enough. Just like the title of the book, this seems to be a repeated theme that both Rolland and Heidi keeps reiterating in the book. No matter what sort of problems they are having, how little they have, how sick they are, how tired they are, how hungry they are, there is always enough. God's love, glory, Joy, strength and provision Will always be enough. Their reliance and faithfulness to God's leading, answers and timing is truly inspirational.  

B. Another great lesson to learn from the book is that faith without work is dead. Our faith and religion are worthless if we ignore the physical needs of those in need around us. If we are truly living disciples of God, we would be seeking Him heart earnestly. His heart breaks for those people living miserably in sub-standard conditions and injustices, not aware of His love and Grace for them and the sacrifice He has done for Him where all sickness, darkness, bondages etc has been defeated. So if we are going to be His disciples then we would have to take actions upon the injustices

III. Discuss an aspect of God's character. 
 God is seen to be absolutely Sovereign in all of His ways in the book. Miracles upon miracles He granted. The sick were healed. The lame walked. The blind saw. The deaf heard. The dead raised. Food that seemed few and scarce became enough. Funds miraculously being sent from the other side of the World at the most perfect timing when they were about to purchase a tent and the stories goes on and on. 

He doesn't always perform physical Miracles. He also worker through the workers healing emotional pains of the people they worker with. These workers mentioned in the book really worked through God's eyes. Loving people and children like God Himself does. The pouring out of the Holy Spirit is eminent and central to the works of these people. 

IV. Discuss a quote/paragraph from the book. 
"Just focus on His face. You Will only make it to the end if you can focus on His face. Focus on His beautiful face. You cant feed the poor, you cant go to the street, you cant see anything happen unless you see His face. One glance of His eyes, and we have all it takes to Lie Down. We're not afraid to die." page 177

When it comes to living a life in missions, people need to keep their focus on Jesus. When they start to rely on others' approvals then they will run dry soon enough. Men can be guaranteed to fail to meet our needs at some point. God won't. He told us not to fear and to rely on Him. The strength, wisdom and ability to sustain such position in the 'missionary world' can only be graciously and freely be granted by God. 

Working in the mission field also requires the worker to put everything they have down at the cross of Jesus. Everything. Including one's own life. Which is all the more reason why we should really rely on God and make Him the central and sole focus. 

Lessons learnt from "Jesus Culture"

I. Overview of book.
This book is a book about revivalists. Banning starts the book off by introducing the readers to the era that we are in now, living through the greatest hour of history and bringing up a new generation of revivalists. He then breaks the book down through the  four sections outlining the characteristics these revivalists ought to have including: an ability to honour the older generation; a passionate love for others that burns from the love they received from Jesus; a prayerful life knowing that God desires to respond to them; and constant demonstration of the supernatural power of God through their lives. He does base the points that he was making by using a lot of scriptural references. 

II. 2 Points learnt from the book. 
A. Banning made a very sobering point about the battle of the generations occurring in the body of Christ. He mentioned how in Exodus 17:8-16, the story of Joshua's victory against the Amalekites was dependent completely on Moses being in position with the rod of God. It was Moses' covering of authority that was essential to Joshua's success as Joshua was properly aligned with Moses. 

Everyone is called to be under some sort of authority in life. Submission to authority is an ongoing matter regardless of how long we have held a role of authority. 'We cannot walk in authority without being submitted under authority.' (page 74) The age of the people of authority that you are called to submit to really doesn't matter. God has strategically placed these people to be used in His Kingdom according to His plans. 

"Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you. (Exodus 20:12 NIV) We have our biological parents to honor. But we cannot ignore those who have spent countless hour pouring into our spiritual lives namely our Godly, spiritual parents or any other elders that have helped us grow.  A continuity of power and blessing occurs when we actively honor those people we can call our 'parents'. 

By ensuring we are honoring and submitting under those authoritative cover, we are being aligned like Joshua was. 

B. A life of prayer is a life of power. Prayer shifts the atmosphere and allows for access to the realm of authority that nothing else can tap into. Prayer is a time where He reveals His heart out to us. Prayer is established in that 'secret place' that releases an anointing like no other. Jesus taught us how to pray and led by example with the amount of time He spent with the Father. 

There are four keys to a prayerful life: 
1. Intimacy. Intimacy with God through loving Him and letting Him love me. 
2. Responsibility.  Realizing that I have the responsibility to pray. Whether it be for the salvation of my family members, breakthrough in my own lives or even to see a change of attitude around my campus. 
3. Belief. I must believe that breakthrough is around the corner, knowing that God responds to my prayer. 
4. Revelation. There are different types of revelations including prophetic (words, dreams or scriptures), friendship (where He calls me His friend), and sonship (knowing that I have received the Spirit of adoption so that I can cry out "Abba Father" to Him)

III. Discuss God's character evident from the book. 
God's love is so evident throughout this book. Out of the love we have received from Him, we will find the passion to love on others and all humankind. His love is also what sustains our relationship with Him. It is what gives us the confidence to know that He longs to respond to our prayers.  His love is what made Him send his Son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. He calls us His friends because of it. His love is the basis of the Spirit of adoption that allows us to call Him as "Abba Father", a very intimate term to be used. His love to everyone is what will move Him to exercise His supernatural power of prophecy, signs, healing, etc to those who needs it. 

I want to experience more of His love, become more aware of it, appreciate it more, so I can be empowered to do the things He has created me to accomplish in my life!

IV. Discuss a quote/paragraph from the book
 "History makers are risk takers, and radical obedience is the key to supernatural fruit" page 198

If I want to become a true ambassador of the Kingdom of God on earth, I cannot just keep talking about it but rather demonstrate the power of the Kingdom. This demonstrations includes healing of the lame, sick, deaf; word of knowledge; and prophetic words. For this to happen, I have to act in 'radical obedience' and by asking for His power to be released. The anointing of God is released through faith when I take a risk. Only then will I start seeing supernatural fruits. 

I realize that fear of failure and people will prevent this power to flow. Disappointments and deficiency should be expected. But don't view it from a man's perspective. See it from an educational/experience perspective where every situation needs to be embraced as an opportunity to grow. 

I need to believe that the simple acts of obedience will result in a breakthrough!!! Let risk-taking be my signature as a history maker, world changer and Kingdom shaper!

Lessons learnt from "WHO you are when noone's looking"


I. Overview of Book
Bill Hybels has written this book about how to live life full of virtues and Godly characters. He sees beyond today's 'wrong world' and views it as a great challenge for individuals to keep pursuing an improvement on their Godly characters so that changes can occur in this world. Not just small changes, big changes such as to see love being spread, needs of people being met, injustice confronted, no more violence and also leading others towards Jesus. He highlights the different virtues that are important and through his personal experience and scriptural references, he explores the ways in which we can improve our Godly characters to become a better influencer, world changer and kingdom shaper.  

II. 2 Points learnt from
The book

A. A person with vision have the ability to see beneath the surface of people's lives. They believe it is worth the effort to 'dig' beyond people's cover. They know that looking at people's heart, character, hopes and fears that motivate a person's behavior, is the gateway into helping them be a step closer to the great person God had originally intended them to be.

Each person is made unique by God. For a person to have the ability to tap into other people's 'hidden jewel' is truly a blessing. You'd be able to see potential, prospect and future when others may have lost faith. It then leads to an easier process of surrender to God personally to let Him work in our lives.

B. There are many aspects of sacrificial love for different  types of relationships. It is the backbone of lasting marriages and strong friendships. In marriage, it is to put the spouse's needs before your own because you want to see them grow into their full potential. In friendships, it means the willingness to meet others' needs to show that they are well-loved. In the world at large, this type of love is as simple as spreading and giving out love to those who need it the most.

III. Discuss an aspect of God's character
A great aspect of God's love expressed in this book through the fact that Bill had dedicated 4 chapters in the book speaking about the different types of love. God's love is so big for us that it is mostly beyond our comprehension. The love that we understand can be divided into a few different categories (in the book it is classified as: tender love, tough love, sacrificial love and radical love). All four types of love i want to be able to enjoy and grow in to be able to maximize my ability to influence others.

I feel I need most improvement on tender love. I need to learn to view people as tools to be used or trouble to be avoided. Another way of viewing it is to treat people like Jesus does including lifting people up, forgiving them and continue to treat them with love and respect.

IV. Discuss a quote/paragraph from the book.
"Endurance sustains courage. A burst of courage for fifteen minutes is good, but it is not enough to carry you through. Endurance gives staying power to discipline" page 60

Many people struggle with endurance as there are many quitting points in this life. Go back a century and you will find that quitting was considered as disgraceful. These days, it is pretty common. I see this a lot especially when it comes to those people with leadership positions.  Sometimes it looks like it is so much easier to just become spectators instead of a leader or servant. The challenge is, do we really want to stop becoming an influence to others when we have a greater calling to serve for God's glory?! If I ever get to that stage, I hope that I will turn to God, trust Him to empower me to crash through the quitting point barrier and know that God will help me come out in one piece on the other side.

Lessons learnt from Passion and Purity

Just taking excerpts from the book reports that i had to do....

I. Overview of book
This book written by Elizabeth Elliot partly follows her life story as she and her first husband Jim battles through similar things that we do today when it comes to our fleshy, selfish, ungodly, unholy sexual desires with the person whom we love and want tos spend the rest of our lives with. She is à living testimony when it comes to living à life in purity, holy before God and what it means to wait upon THE Lord, daily "killing" THE flesh in order to say yes to God. She doesnt pretend that it was easy, nor does she "sugarcoat" what her flesh so desires. Their love story may not be a common one but that doesnt discount the lessons one can learn (especially THE females) through her wonderful testimony of how she resisted temptations, remained faithful to her beloved while being wholly devoted to God.

II. 2 points learnt from the book
À. So Often we, as females, find ourselves in à position where we become impatient, and want to take matters into our own hands and end up becoming THE initiator. What some of us dont realise is the fact that it becomes a turn off when we try to fulfill what the male are created to do. Adam's job was to be responsible, to care, protect, provide and cherish Eve. Male in their physical design are Made to be the initiator. Females are then to be the reciprocal and are ought to be the receptors and responders. In accordance to scriptures, we are also to submit to our husband.

Taking the story of Adam and Eve a little further, it can be seen how devastating of a result we get when they start reversing roles. Chaos was seen then and it still is evident today due to their role-swapping. I am sure that it was never God's intention for us human beings to try and swap roles just as it was always intended for us to prepare ourselves to be His bride as a representation of the relative position of Christ and the church.


B.  In Chapter 38, she talks about this idea of THE process of letting go is part of our ongoing spiritual life. We stunt THE growth of our soul when we refuse to let go of THE things God wants us to let go of. In fact, we sometimes have THE incorrect perception where we think once we have received something from God, that it is ours and that we can do whatever we want with it. THE truth is, we are to thank God for it and always be ready to offer, relinquish and let go of it should Hè require it from us.

We need to Remmember that THE growth of any living thing requires THE Seed to first die before  THE new shoot Springs up, giving way to à new form of life. Just like our body cells die to give way to new cells in order for us to function, there Will be things in life we need to let go, or "kill", to give way for His purposes to be fulfilled in our lives.


III. An aspect of God that is very evident through the book is His holiness. This then extend and relates back to me being pure in heart for Him and Him alone even when I am in a relationship with a person of the opposite sex. The bible is clear when it comes to discussing the issues of sex before marriage and/or sex within marriage. The marriage bed is to be kept pure. There's no gray area for it.

THE book is à testimony that it is possible for two young people, full of hormones, curiosity and Passion to resist temptation.  A pure and worthwhile motive is required to assist them as well God to be in their midst to enable them to stay unadulterated. It is obviously on our part not to walk ourselves into 'temptation' itself. Because we Will Then have to stand before God and be accountable for it.

Simply put, Hè has given THE absolute best for me ie Jesus Christ in all His righteousness and holiness being crucified, why cant i do this somewhat seemingly minute act of obedience in comparison, for Him?

IV. Get a quote or paragraph from the book and talk about it.
"While purity before marriage... consists in holding ourselves from one another in obedience to God, purity after marriage consists in giving ourselves to and for each other in obedience to God. Passion, whether that of one who is hungry for another not yet given or that of one who, by God's gift, shares the bed of another, must be held in principle. The principle is love - not erotic or sentimental or sexual feeling, but love." (page 180)

By experience, the notion of being 'in love' isn't going to last forever. Many marriages have ended due to one or both of the parties falling "out of love". I have learned through this book that love needs to be "maintained by the will, deliberately strengthened by habit, reinforced by grace which both partners ask and receive from God.." Once love is maintained in the relationship, passion is then upheld and then purity can be cultivated inside a marriage. I find this to be an important lesson now as this will remind me in the future not to be so selfish when it comes to my married life but rather to ask for God's grace continually to maintain a healthy marriage. :)

Huntington Beach, OC, CA

Sooooooo... OC is like insane so far. Im staying at a 'first assembly of God' church in Santa Ana. TAkes us about 20mins to get to the home church called the Refuge which is a pretty big church about 20mins from d beach. We have around 130 of us from YWAM Denver. Around 120 from 'circuit riders' in Kona, Hawaii.

Every morning we gather at the hub to meet up andworship together and pray etc. Have lunch together then get sent off to our different ministry places. So far we have had Peter Warren (leader of YWAM Denver) speak on how this entire thing come about. We had John Dawson WHO is kind of the 'grandpa' of YWAM spoke and blessed us with annointing to go forth and share about Jesus to people.

I say that this place has been insane because i know for a fact God is doing some funky awesome stuff here :) our first day together, some mexican family that own a mexican restaurant supplied us withlunch. They refused to be paid. Fed 250+ of us for freeee!!!! And all they asked was for prayer.. Nuuuuttzzz....
Also, We have hired a tent at Hilton of Huntington Beach. It is normally rented at $10,000/night. Its not one of those cheap tent stuff. Its a HUGE white tent normally used for wedding reception. Its right across the road from the beaccbh!!!! Prime spot and all!!!! God somehow did something and gave it for us to use for $450/night. We've got it booked for a week. And today i heard some guy wrote a cheque to cover for that rent!!!!!!! And theeeennnnn..... We have vans from Denver but nowhere near enough to b able to transport us around. This morninggggg some non-profit group donated 6 rented cars for us for a wk. And they've paid for insurance etc on each car!!! Soooo craaaazzzyyyy....

So many peoplehave been saved/rededicated their lives to Jesus. Revival is breaking out like crazy in this county. And we have only had 2 nights at the tent. Im so priviledged to be a part of this... :)


Yesterday was crazy... I was talking to some retired guy and ended up playing those jamba drum thing worshipping with 4 other ppl in the middle of huntington beach carpark!! It's crazzzzyyyy... Hehheheheheh...

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Gift giving session

This week is titled Relationship Week... One of the crazy things we've done this week was that we had to go away and find something to give to someone in the group (student or staff). It didn't have to necessarily be something of great value but it just had to be something that you are prompted to give by God. 

I've uploaded a few of the videos and here are a couple of the links:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKQcDC34vjw&feature=related
Jamie and Elise. They are like 20 and 19 years old and are married. Elise didn't get to enjoy her full first dance as Jamie's wife on their wedding day. This was Jamie's way of making up for it.

Rebecca is one of the beautiful students that I'm here with. :) She sits with me at breakfast every morning :) :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Huntington Beach, Orange County, CALIFORNIA

Okaaayyy... so previously on my blog I wrote about how we will be going to California before leaving on our outreach...

I've just been told the other night that... we will be leaving by our YWAM vans on 17th August really early in the morning for an 18 hours drive to Huntington Beach area in California. The event has been given as a vision to the entire leadership team here at the base. We have been praying for God to open up doors and show us how He would like things to happen there.

For the last week or so, we have been praying for God to lead us specifically to the "vessel" that He wants us to use there. We currently have a large church hall ready to be used. But the vision that the leaders received was for the night rally to be held at a place that is neutral. The event will not be held under a church's name so that it will be more welcoming to people that otherwise would not step into a church...

The draft plan is for us to have "sessions" in the morning. For the YWAM people to get "fed" spiritually and  intercede earlier during the day. After lunch, we will all split across the area and start inviting people to come to the night rally where we will have the gospel be shared and teachings as well.

Today we had a worship session in the morning. we watched a video of a prophesy made to this particular base not long ago. After that was done, Peter (the founder of YWAM Denver) felt like we should take up an offering. Now this morning, we had our normal students, staff and around 5 guests at our worshiop session. There were probably about 100 people in total that attended. Peter mentioned that we will be using 7 vans. Petrol (gas they call it here) expenses to get us to and from California was estimated at $1000 a van. So we need around $7000 to get us to and from there.

Peter then challenged us on the spot to pray and ask God about whether we should give, and the amount. It was amazing to see that from that many people, the amount totalled to over $5000!!!! Please realise that these people are not millionares. A LOT of the students are still waiting for the money to be able to go to outreach. But they were moved by God to give! The staff here rely on support for their everyday needs. They do not get paid from the base at all. So seeing that much money come out from the students, staff and guests was absolutely HUMBLING!!! :)



Prayer Request:
1. For God to show Matt (the guy from YWAM Denver who is currently there to help plan things) the place where He would like us to hold our rally.
2. For a "vessel" for the night rally (we were thinking it would be a large tent but then we'd need sound permits, etc to be organised too).
3. Financials.... This event only started coming into the picture a few months ago, so it's not like they've had the time to budget anything in. But it can be seen that this is truly what God wants us to get involved in so we are having the faith for the financials to be covered by Him :) (If you want to give, please read the previous blog that has all the details)

Intercessory Prayer

It is amaaazziiiingg to see how much the students and staff are encouraged to pray here... and when they pray, they don't just do it "korean style" (that's where everyone decides to pray corporately together with EVERYONE just saying things out loud at the same time), but they also WAIT on the Lord and listen to what He has to say on EVERYTHING we pray for.... when I say prayer, I don't mean just praying out over food or over our family and stuff... but over the teams that are currently on outreach as well as events that are currently still being planned...



Our whiteboard after intercessory prayer for OC, California @ Eagle Rock Friday 8th July 2011

We went to our other campus the other weekend for a "camping & hiking" weekend and on the Friday night, we took the time to intercede for our upcoming outreach to California. This whiteboard represents all the things that the staff/students got from God during that time. Visions and verses for us to pray for and with :)

I find it extremely encouraging especially when a few of the people got the same vision from God. It acts as a confirmation for our group that God wants us to take part in this movement. :)

Last week, we also had worship on a Wednesday morning and they asked us to pray and intercede for the teams YWAM Denver have out on outreach at the moment. We broke up into groups of 4/5 people and got given a country, along with the picture of the team and the list of what ministry they were going to do there. We were asked to wait on God and see what God has put into our hearts to intercede for. And after that, we were given little cardboard cards with a name on it. We were then to wait on God and ask what we should be praying for these people....

I was extremely humbled by the fact that God was just giving us, as a group, the opportunity to wait on Him, rely on Him and let Him be the one to guide us as to what to pray for these people and countries.... I must admit that I questioned myself a lot when it comes to hearing His voice especially for others. But in the words of one of the teachers we've had (obviously it's not a direct quote...), too many good thoughts/encouraging thoughts over one topic/person cannot possibly come from us. We are so naturally negative that it is not normal for us to be thinking so positively over a topic/person, so it must come from the Holy Spirit :)

Obviously we don't know what is going out to each of the people out there on outreach but I believe that each one of those cards will bless them and encourage them tremendously. :)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Mail & Support

I might be a little slowwww... BUT... IF anyone would like to mail me something in the next 5 weeks, here's how you should address it:

Tiska Sudarmana
Youth With a Mission
ATW DTS Summer 2011
12750 W. 63rd Avenue
Arvada, CO 80004



Alsoooooo..... God has been extremely goood to me in that He has provided enough funds for my school and outreach fees. But I would like to extend an invitation to any of you that read this and feel moved to give.... I have a few friends that are still trying to raise funds to go to their outreach. You are of course more than welcome to specify to me if you'd like to give towards one of them or to myself. :) You can either:

1. Transfer to my account:

Tiska Sudarmana
BSB: 124-001
Acct Number: 21439221
Ref: (outreach or Tiska or whatevere)

2. Use your credit card (don't forget to check fees and charges associated with it if you're using an AUD or IDR credit card).
Go to: https://ywamdenver.org/payments/?student=1

My information: Tiska Sudarmana
Name of School: Around the World DTS
Date of School: Summer 2011



Whether you choose to give or not, I still humbly ask for your prayers as we have around 5 weeks left here before my team departs for our outreach. God has done so much in the lives of the students here and I know that He will equip us even more in the weeks to come prior to our departure. :) :)

Lessons learnt from "Is That Really You God?"

One of my assessments here includes handing in a book report every 2 weeks... The books I have to read are shown below... I'm supposed to read them in order and I've handed the first one in...




So here are a couple of lessons I learnt from the book that really opened my eyes:

1. The idea that "we can hear a confirming voice through another person. But if God has something important to tell you, He will speak to you directly". Sometimes our relationship with God isn't personal enough that we feel we won't get the answer directly from God because we are not 'spiritual' enough. This should not be the case; and we should only use others' answers (even though they are extremely close to us and are Christians) as confirmations from God and not the answer itself.


2. "Guidance is first of all a relationship with the Guide. The first goal of guidance is to lead us into a closer relationship with Jesus. All other goals should be subservient to that. We have to be especially watchful when He is leading us toward tools, such as a ship or a university. There is nothing wrong with tools. But it's a sad day if the tools ever supersede the Lord Himself"

Guidance, (especially when it comes to special events we are planning for church....) is first of all a relationship with the Guide. It is extremely important that we keep our focus on Jesus when we look for guidance. We as humans tend to get easily distracted especially when we are seeking guidance that involves tools, fame, money or power. As Loren mentioned in the book, it is not good when these ever supersede the Lord Himself. It is dangerous and we may subconsciously start 'worshiping' and giving glory to the tools rather than God.

Reading this particular passage really challenged me to review past social events I have led at church in my life. How often do I look for guidance through or with my ministry team that leads them into a closer relationship with Jesus? How many times have we ended up giving glory to the tools themselves as opposed to Jesus?

It was a real eye-opener and I feel ashamed at what I may have caused in the passed. Looking back I realized that there may have been more than one instances when I led events completely lacking God's guidance but instead relied upon what I felt was confirmations from my peers and leaders. Building relationship with God and being in constant communication with Him in every aspect should be the key to a successful and purposeful event.

I certainly hope that this can be implemented at my church now or at least upon my return. :) :)

Pelajaran dalam MENGASIHI sesama

Sorry folks... but this particular post will be targeted solely for the BBIC peeps :)

Anyway.... Satu pelajaran yang Tuhan kasih ke aku gak lama yang lalu..... Ini foto diambil Sunday 3rd July 2011. Aku diajak anak kamarku (cewe yg difoto) utk ikut dia jln. Saat itu cuman ada aku didlm kamar and dia tuh kyk ngedesek aku utk ikut. Aku tanya mau kmana and dia jwb mau nonton kembang api.

Di Amrik itu, perayaan 4th July gede sekali... jadi mumpung taon ini jadi long wkend, celebration mreka mulai dari hari jumat-senin. so di daerah2 tertentu mreka kasi show kembang api di stiap2 kota. so ini adalah hanya salah satu dari perayaan2 kecil sblom hari haa....

Setelaah aku diajak ama temenku, aku bilang oke. Kita turun.... Ternyataaaaa.... yg ikut pergi adalah anak2 yg ada difoto ini... Jujur seumur hidup aku gak pernah kebayang bkl pernah hang out sama org2 yg kyk mreka. Kita jalan2 ke daerah yg ada park, sekolah, etc.. jadi byk orang2. dsitu utk pertama kalinya aku brasa bgt tatapan2 org2 yg gak bisa mengerti mengapa satu grup ber5 org yg begitu berbeda bisa jln2 sama2 kyk kita satu keluarga.... Gak pernah juga aku merasa seperti dikucilkan org hanya dengan lirikan mreka saja....

Memang byk dari mreka dulunya kecanduan obat2an... Cowo yg kaos merah samping aku tuh baru mulai stop pake 2 hari sblom program kita mulai. yg laen2nya smua mempunyai crita2 mreka tersendiri... unik2 smua... dan byk juga yg mengerikan karna cowo yg bertato tuh umur TigaTujuh taon and udah pretty much mencoba sgala macem yg bisa dicandu dhe...

Sesudah kita nonton kembang apinya.... Kelemahan2 mreka mulai muncul.. kita kembali ketempat dmana mobil diparkir dan itu adalah disalah satu rumah temennya si"tato" yg juga lagi party sambil minum2 and merokok2. Dsana mreka SEMUA merokok. Sudah ada tertulis ddlm buku utk program ini dmana kita semua dilarang menggunakan, meminum alcohol ataupun merokok. Sempet hatiku bingung mau gmana.... aku seperti kejepit ditengah. gak pernah aku begitu deket dgn sgitu byk org yg minum2 n rokok2 dlm satu tempat yg gitu kecil.

Yg bikin lebih parah lagi... mlm sblomnya tuh seluruh kelas kita baru diajak pelayanan dicity utk "mengasihi" org2 yg kita ketemuin dijln... so aku bener2 ke convict utk tidak menghakimi org based on apa yg ada dluar mrekaa...  so mlm itu juga begitu berat utk aku gak masuk kedalam jebakan agar tidak menghakimi mreka... bahkaannn utk mengasihi merekaaaa.... :)

Aku sempet mikir mau berbicara kepada mentor mreka masing2 tp aku gak jadi. dan hari ini membuktikan bahwa itu decision itu dtg dgn hikmat. karena hari ini aku dpt mlihat sisi mereka yg vulnerable dan hati mreka yg terbuka akan kasih Allah Bapa :) :) :) Setiap dari mreka bener2 dengan hati yang hancur itu minta ampun dan menerima identitas mreka yg baru dlm Tuhan :)

4/5 dari kami akan sama travel on the around the world DTS. So please bantu doaaaa agar mreka tidak akan menjadi batu sandungan satu utk yg laennya karna walaupun mreka sudah melepaskan byk hal, itu tidak berarti mreka tidak akan dicobain/digodain lagi ama si jahat...

Walaupun lesson yg rada sulit... tp aku berterima kasih ama Tuhan sudah diberikan kesempatan utk dpt bergabung dgn orang2 seperti mreka utk sama2 melayani dalam namaNya.. :)

Monday, July 4, 2011

Week 1 of my YWAM Journey


The girls you see above are my roomies: Courtney, Maria, Christina, Jacqueline, Me, Sarah and Hannah. ^.^v

My YWAM program started last week. For those who dont know/remember, i am in Denver, Colorado. We've just been gettng to know the staff and each other in this past week. THE students and à few of the staff live here on base in à dormitory style environment. Im pretty sure my friends have started putting pictures up on Facebook. :)

They have a number of schools that run at the same time here. Total number of people running around the base here would easily add up to 100 at the moment. That includes the little kids of the married staff. Keep in mind there are other teams on outreach at the moment too :) The Discipleship Training School (DTS) that i am doing currently have a total of 60 people (students + staff). We will be splitting into 3 differrent groups for THE outreach. I am in THE Around THE World (ATW) team and we Will leave for our outreach trip Around 8 weeks earlier than the others, 1 team to South Africa and Mozambique, the other to the Phillipines.

Our outreach destinations have been confirmed but not concrete. Currently the plan Will be for us to go travel to Orange County, California as à whole YWAM base for an outreach ministry around THE middle of August. From there, THE ATW team Will travel down to Mexico while everyone else travel back to base in Denver. Im not entirely sure at this stage how many days we Will be spending on each country but after Mexico, we Will be going to: Hong Kong, Xi An (and maybe Beijing too) China, Thailand, Jordan, Israël, and Holland before returning back to Denver early November. :)

It's been àn amazing week getting to know THE group, learning about worship, intercession and relinquishing things for God. It is going to get more intense next week onward as we begin formally our lecture phase and our assessments begin to pile up ;)

Prayer Request:
1. For God to open my heart and ears to be sensitive to His voice and surrender to His will
2. For the grace & strength for me to be able to relinquish (put aside) the things that God has asked of me during this time
3. For to enlarge my capacity to just LOVE people the way Hè does without being judgemental

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Pre-YWAM lesson learnt in LA

I had been staying at a relative's place in LA and she asked me if i mind coming along to her church's prayer meeting as she's been absent in d last couple of wks.  I was quite interested and so decided to join them...There was a guy (David Tong, son of Stephen Tong if d name is familier to u) that shared a little before we prayed. He brought the word from the life of Jonas.

Jonas received the word from God to go to Nineveh but He ran away. He caused God to send a great wind upon the ship he boarded and the ppl on the boat ended up throwing him overboard so the raging sea would calm. Jonah was then swallowed whole by an aquatic animal for 3 days. Inside the 'fish', he still felt the presence of God such that he can still call and pray to God even though he was experiencing what can be termed as 'merciful wrath of God'. He returned to that presence of God even though he was in the 'pit'. He quoted what is parallel to psalm 18:(6)7.

At the end of the day, the story follows a pattern where God's primary purpose is still being fulfilled even though Jonah's suffering point was a process of chastisement. You see at the end of the story that Jonah was being called again by God to fulfil the original calling Jonah was given.

What amazed me was the fact that i never realised how similar this story was to what ive been living in the past 2 years. How God had called me to do this YWAM program in 2009 but under the  circumstances, i didnt follow it through enough to go then. This lead to a rollercoast of a ride.

My point of chastisement came and I paid the price for not being faithful to Him. But what I didn't realise was the fact that our Sovereign God had a better plan beyond my imagination. The past 2 years has served as my time to experience God's merciful wrath through my personal life as well as my family life. I am proud to be serving a faithful and graceful God that was with me even when I strayed out from His plans. He was the one that rescued me, restored me, mended my relationships with my family, called me to return to His plans, provided for me, and again made the way for me to join an even better, greater and more exciting YWAM program that Will allow me to literally circle the globe in 12 wks!

The lesson learnt:
Sometimes in life we go astray from God's plan. It may be due to our stubornness, fear, lack of faith, insecurities,etc, etc (the list is endless!) But His ultimate plan will always be fulfilled in His perfect timing along with His primary and secondary purposes. THE timing does sometimes depend on how long it takes us to humble ourselves in repentance and return to God for guidance. ^.^

Preface....??

Hai....

This is my test page.... Please forgive me for any spelling errors made in the near future. I Will be using my iPhone and my Dutch roommate's iPad. :)

So..... The purpose of this blog is to keep those people that are interested, updated with what is currently going on. Obviously i may not be able to write religiously but if I find à good lesson that I've learnt/observed, and any testimonies that may be able to bless others, Id like to write it up for others to read. :)